__ Friday, August 27, 2004 ;

I had a terrible nightmare yesterday nite.. (Considered to be terrible to me)

I dont know why sometimes, i will feel as if stanrick is still thinking abt his ex gf when he talked abt her.. hmm.. maybe i'm a xiao qi gui..

Anyway, its a dream that everything does not really tallies.. thats why its called a dream ba..

*** I went for dinner with stanrick and his ex gf, michelle.. Actually is she kept wanting to find him and so we agreed to go dinner with her. Ate somewhere at lot1 i think.. Still remembered clearly that in my dream, she's sitting beside me and stanrick is sitting in front of me.. can feel the dilemma in stanrick.. seeing present gf and ex gf.. ^_^.. anyway, then we went to somewhere.. a room.. i think to sing ktv or wat.. with some of my friends.. very vague but they are there.. selena, tim, steph.. After that, stanrick told me to go home with my friends.. coz they are staying near me.. and that he'll send michelle home.. reluctantly, i went.. remembered that i reached home at 10pm(saw my hp).. but stanrick did not call my during my journey home.. he will normally call.. i also dont know why i dont dare to call him too.. then at 10.45pm, he send a msg to me telling me that he will be going out with michelle till 7am next morning, not going home and thanks me for the chat and evening... My heart was really feeling very painful even though its just a dream and its nothing.... "
Suddenly, i was awaken up by my hp.. ^(oo)^ called and told me its 7am le.. time to wake up.. I am so glad that its only a dream.. but still i dont know why i'm feeling very sad... I even woke up in tears..

Forgot to mention.. michelle is the ex gf of stanrick that he likes most.. Sometimes, he still mention abt her and up till 2 weeks ago, he was still carrying their photo in his wallet.. Maybe that's the reason for me feeling this way...

^_^ I wont force him to forget someone he really love in the past.. Everyone has feelings and if he forgets her so fast, then its weird.. but i hope as time passes, he will eventually forget abt her totally and only focus on me, and only me........ I hope i can treat him as well as michelle treated him or even better.. =)



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