__ Thursday, September 30, 2004 ;
A blog is really a great place for me to write anything and everything.. that i'm feeling.. everytime i post something here, i'll feel much much better... I write wat i want or u people read wat u want.. just click on the x at the right hand corner if you dont want to read.. =X
Its gonna be the last entry for september.. Actually i dont know what i'm doing here.. with nothing but rubbish to write.. with lots of works to do.. but still i want to write....
I feel lost.. i dont know what i want.. be it career or love life.. dont know what to do.. what not to do.. People say women are very confused creatures.. i agree.. I mean.. i find myself hard to understand too... When i dont have a bf and can have all the freedoms in the world, i find myself wanting to find a bf.. coz its kind of lonely.. When i have one, i dont know how to cherish.. always quarrelling and fighting.. it doesnt seem like me at all... i dont know how to control my emotions.. Maybe i'm still too young to handle this kind of shit, dont know how to react and handle the situation....learning stage is a tough stage.. can i make it, or will i need to give up halfway through.. or maybe there is too little things for me to do and too much energy for me to spend.. so spend it on stupid things... like picking up a fight...
I want to meet my bf often.. but i also dont want us to be sick and tired of each other.. people often say dont meet too often.. otherwise will have arguements and stuff like that.. but if dont meet so often, i feel that you wont be close to ur bf.. talk too often not good, dont talk also not good.. how to achieve a balance? where you can have bf and he cares and can have equal freedom.. its easy to say, difficult to achieve... thats what i need to learn... Another saying is that when you grow older, you should open one eye and close one eye when facing relationships, to make life easier for you.. but why, if you need to close the eye, means that the other person is not trustworthy.. then, what for you still want to be together with the person?? I'll rather be single and be lonely than to do that.. (My thinking now..) But i think if i'm really single, i would think that i can close one eye.. why are women so complex and fickle minded...
People say i'm stubborn.. am i really? i just dont like it when people try to put me down.. i have my point of view, so let me say it... unless you can really prove me wrong... I can be really nice to you.. if you show me you are worth it.. give me attitude and i'll show you whats worst.... One last thing, if you like me, stay.. if you dont, get lost.. dont try to change me.. to become what i dont want to be.. i dont like being forced to do things....
It is a mistake to try to look too far ahead. The chain of destiny can only be grasped one link at a time.
Sir Winston Churchill
British politician (1874 - 1965)
Hack, and alex kept asking me to go kbox tonite.... how can i push it off....haiz..
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