__ Tuesday, September 28, 2004 ;

Its been a few days i never blog already.. actually got alot of things to do.. the NTU's booklets to be completed.. but, just feel guilty for not blogging and after seeing baby's blog, i must say something...


Baby, where did all ur confusions come from.. all along i thought u know the direction of ur life and have clear goals abt everything.. so, where and how did it arise.. dont question life, for everything that happens will surely have its reason for it..


Sometimes, when we have grown older, we tend to take the friends or people close to us for granted, we take it that they will always be there.. but, i agree with baby.. time stops no one.. Yesterday, while walking home with stephanie, i am suddenly filled with guilt.. She was telling me that her friends, yu tong and cerintha has left singapore and she knows how it feels.. you will regret and stay why didnt u spend more time with them while they are around.. its the same for me too.. remember last week when i thought this sat that lynn's leaving.. i kept blaming myself for not spending the past two sats with her.. now that she has extended her stay, i still didnt go and meet her.. when she and stephanie went clubbing last sat, i did not join them.. when they want to go clubbing this sat, i was still thinking of whether i should go.. i just feel so bad.. i should have been with them..


Then, stephie told me she felt very very down the last week.. loneliness and stuffs, with lynn leaving.. i feel.. so sad.. she was there when i needed her the other time.. told her i need to go clubbing coz i wont know whats the result between stanrick and...... without hestitation, she told me she'll accompany me.. how can i let my life evolve around stanrick and not care abt how she and lynn feels.. i'm sorry lynn.. sorry stephie too..


Now that i've told stanrick how i feel, i'm glad that he's very understanding and supportive.. i need to better juggle life between baby, friends, work and family.. =)

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