__ Tuesday, October 12, 2004 ;

Got the big news from selena and Ivy, that we're going on a company trip.. but its more of a family cum company trip.. coz auntie jane is going to bring her family members, as well as JIC's staff to.. BANGKOK for a 5days trip.. guess wat, i'm the only one from All-In printing going.. haha.. but, that will mean that i'll have to take abt 4 days leave, fri,sat,mon and tues.. haiz.. Anyway, still looking forward to it.. ^_^

I was not feeling well yesterday.. having stomach upsets.. didnt want to go work, but dragged myself to it.. coz i have to full in the forms and send the cheque to CPF before 14th.. was prepared to go home halfway to go see a doc.. was seriously feeling unwell, quite weak and feel like vomitting.. but then alex told me not to go home.. he said doctor also give medicine which is very similar to the chinese "Bai Feng Wan".. so asked weili to go downstairs and buy for me.. then told me to rest at the sofa in Auntie Jane's room.. I slept for abt 1hr, 11.30 to 12.30pm.. then alex woke me up for lunch.. had fishball soup.. haha.. gave some to alex too.. (thats his motive for asking me to buy fishball soup).. Stanrick's sick too.. same as me.. guess we've took the wrong food the day before.. He was quite angry that alex dont let me go home.. later i told him to cool down.. guess he's also too weak to quarrel..

Finally endured through and went home at 6pm.. Met selena for dinner..

I really hate people who lie.. no matter wat reason u have, i still think that u shouldnt lie.. anyway, i was really quite disappointed in you yesterday... didnt want to believe me anymore, coz one lie could lead to more lies in future.. As i was walking home with selena, i knew that whatever decision i made that night is going to affect my many tommorrows to come.. My heart told me i cant let u go.. Cant imagine days without you.. but i seriously hate it when u lie.. can i take the risk again? I kept fighting myself with this.. But still, i feel that i believe whatever explanations you have given me.. My heart ask me to forgive u..

I told selena this: " do u know why sometimes some girls will stay on with their bf no matter how terrible the guy is or how many times she has been hurt? Its becoz their heart is still with the guy.. the love is still there.. if the love is gone, no matter wat the guy do, the girl will also not be touched.. "

Thats what i feel.. I still love you baby.. thats why i gave us a chance.. But, pls dont do it again.. Dont take it for granted that i'll forgive u.... becoz lying is the limit that i've given myself and u....

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