__ Tuesday, October 19, 2004 ;

Stephie told me that she dont really feel like going clubbing with lynn on wednesday as thursday got to work, it'll be very tiring.. actually, thats my point of view too.. kind of lack the mood to club nowadays.. when they mention abt clubbing, the excitment in me only lasted for a while, then it will fade away.. guess i'm getting old.. dont like the energy to club so much le.. hahaha.. But, we've promise lynn we'll go with her.. especially me, coz i didnt go with her and stephie on friday and a some other times before this.. Luckily(oppsss..), lynn msg me today and told me that she has lots of things to study(she's taking CPA)and thus cant go le.. ^_^

Over the months or should i say since the beginning of this year, i feel that i've changed.. things i like to do in the past doesnt seems to interest me now.. Sometimes, this change is getting abit out of hand.. i dont seem to know wat i want now.. haiz.. abit out of topic le.. but, luckily.. there's one thing that i still really likes and hope it wont die out.. otherwise, life will really be so sianz.. and that's singing!!! yeah.. i like singing alot.. with selena especially.. ahah.. we'll hit on all S.H.E's songs.. *hope thursday faster come.. coz we're going Kbox together*

I actually went to sleep quite early yesterday.. abt 10pm, after i got home from dinner with selena and stephie.. sleep as in i was in bed at 10pm.. but funny enough, the moment i lied onto my bed, my coughing gets worst.. in the afternoon, maybe few coughs.. but at nite, it got so bad that i cant sleep at all.. kept tossing around in my bed or getting up to drink water.. Wanted to get up and read story book but heck, i cant borrow from library coz i still havent pay the fines.. haha.. finally, feel asleep at dont know wat time, but then woke up at 3+am again.. coz my throat is really itchy and started to cough again.. haiz.. i hate getting sick or coughs.. what's the use of getting to bed early when u cant sleep at all..

So, i used those hours to think of things.. i find that my life is really getting abit stagnant.. No aims, nothing.. just like wat stephie says, very fast one.. today is monday.. soon it'll be friday.. haiz, i know.. but it seems that we're waiting for time to past, instead of getting ourselves busy and spending quality time everyday.. we're wasting our youth.. I've decided to go back to my gym lifestyle.. luckily selena and stephie wants to go back to it too.. in the past, we'll go gym twice or three times a week.. now we'll back to it.. with a goal in mind, to lose weight and to tone up.. Also, after our gyming session, we're going to get down to serious stuff, that is 1 hr of discussing/sourcing for BD.. that's gonna be a start for me..

Another thing, i've wrote out a list(though not completed) abt how to be a better person and improve myself.. i'm going to start some self evaluation and will try to change to be a better self.. =) After i've finish, think i'll put the list in my wallet so i'll be reminded of it everyday.. Now, i'm going to remain with my motto, what's mine will be mine and dont think so much abt other things.. Things will sort out by itself.. Jiayou ba gal.. ^(oo)^

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