__ Sunday, October 17, 2004 ;
As usual, i came to baby's house in the afternoon.. Before that, accompanied him for his haircut, bought some noodles back home and he cooked for me.. Had our lunch, slack for a while and then took a nap.. Wanted him to study for his exams, but he wanted to accompany me instead.. I was so blur, forgot to bring the meteor gardens VCD, so cant watch.. Went to surf the net instead..
This is when things started to happen.. i logged on to friendster and wanted to let baby see my secondary school frens.. then i went in to check the messages... he realised that i've lots of messages which i havent check.. some was sent to me during end of july, aug.. i havent check.. but he also saw some replies from me to others in aug and sept.. he went to check on my messages and got mad.. coz lots of those idiot guys go message me lots of rubbish.. coz u know guys in friendster.. some are so desperate, go message alot of girls or add lots of girls.. then also forgot wat others say to them.. one of the guys say i told him i'm not attached.. hey, come on.. my status in friendster is that i am attached and i even have my bf's pix.. pls use ur brain.. baby got alittle upset.. guess coz he saw alot of people messaging me.. and i am still in contact with people who used to like me.. i didnt like him doing it, yet i still did it.. i was feeling terrible guilty.. i mean.. i didnt do anything.. but still, i dont like to see him sad.. instead, i turn around and showed him attitude.. i know i cant find excuses for my stupid actions, but still.... haiz.. its my fault.. i actually hit him.. twice.. on his arms.. coz i was so frustrated.. i wanted him to understand that nothing is going on between me and them.. they are not important to me at all.. then, i wanted to go and delete friendster.. since it is giving me so much trouble.. but baby dont let.. he says if i delete mine, he's going to delete his too.. so i went to delete most of the friends.. except for those who i really knows..
I just want to say something.. i'm really really very sorry.. the more u are not angry with me, the more terrible i feel.. but trust me, i wont ever do anything to hurt u..
SAT: Yesterday, i met my mummy after work and we went to jurong pt together.. to change her ATM card and then we went for lunch and went shopping.. I love my mummy alot.. i told her i wanted to eat steamboat, coz like very long never eat le.. she went to prepare and buy the things.. she never fail to do anything for me or my brother.. sometimes i can say that she's naggy and i'm taking her for granted, but i really love her.. =)
Baby came over to my house at abt 5.30pm for the steamboat dinner.. after that, we slacked around for a while, drank red wine and watch meteor gardens.. One of his ex gf, fiona msg him.. this girl still likes him(she messaged him to tell him).. and i wont forget that she told baby i act cute.. kaoz.. anyway, baby told me to msg her.. anything i want.. so i message that if its nothing important, dont keep msging me.. coz my gf dont like it.. and guess wat's her reply? she says that she thinks stanrick has changed and she's disappointed.. saying that he wasnt like this when he was with michelle.. then say fine if stanrick wants to choose to give up their friendship becoz of me.. I was damn pissed off.. with the girl.. this is the first time i ever get pissed off with the girl.. usually i would think its guys' fault.. but now, clearly in my mind i know its her fault.. kaoz, wat's her problem.. cant she just go find someone else and settle down with him? F*** off and back away from my guy.. Try it if u dare... I just hate it when u step onto my tail and keeping saying me as if i'm bad and u're very good.. NB...
Then baby went home and i talked to stephie on the phone for a while.. was feeling very tired and have the after effects of drinking the wine.. haha..
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