__ Saturday, November 27, 2004 ;
Its a very lazy saturday... i woke up feeling tired even though i've slept early yesterday... *yawnz* why do i have to work on sat.. for half day... go office also like waste the time... my job scope are usually done within the 5 days week.. so sat, go there also become a production worker or maid for alex... *grumble*.. still have to waste money for transport to work... haiz..
The past two days are not very good at work..
Thursday: I've got quite some orders on hand and needs to be printed latest by next wed.. i was panicking.. coz next friday i've be going to bangkok.. which means, next week is a really busy week for me.. i've got to settle the P&L, the salary of staffs, the commissions, the accounts payable, the invoices and to teach alex how to issue invoices when i'm not around... However, i still have to worry abt the production side, coz there's an order of abt 450pads of order chits from a restaurant, to be due on wed.. 3coloured paper, 1 pad there's 50 sets of the 3 color and altogether 450pads.. can u imagine how many papers i have to collate? Apart from this, there's also other jobs... I told Alex to ask jane's mother and my cousin to come and help.. for part time.. he told me see how... can say me and weili is very slow in collating, thats why cant finish.. kaoz!!! slow? we did our very best le.. we're not aunties leh.... i was really angry..
Baby came over during lunch and brought bubble tea for me.. i was so touched... however, during evening... hmm.. was terrible... met up with selena.. wanted to go swimming.. to bad the sports complex is closed... went for dinner instead and went home.. feeling terrible at nite...
Friday: Came to office and once again, door is locked.. alex went drinking again... i was really very angry this time.. there's an order to be due on saturday and i was like.. well if he does his part to print those things out and go out, i have nothing to say.... then me and weili can do our part to collate(even though its not our job).. but, he did not print any thing at all!! I told myself.. fine.. when the customer wants it on saturday and u cant finish collating, i'm not going to be so stupid as to stay back after 1pm to help you... its ur own fault.. Weili and i came to some conclusions abt alex.. (1) He always thinks that he has done alot of things and more or faster than us.. like if he needs to print his bit of things, he will say this like, oh, cant sleep for the nite le.. (2) He cant estimate time.. Always thinks that these things are very easy to do.. then give people false promise.. (3) He dont appreciate us.. thinks that we should help him to collate or fold things or staple things.. that's not our jobs but we have already help you.. dont make it our job k.. Like that day, i wanted to rush back and didnt wrap the invoices.. he say.. sharon.. how can u like this.. kaoz! u can wrap it yourself wat..
Anyway, i was really mad.. alot of customers called and look for alex.. and he's not in.. told us he'll be back by 12noon.. but called again at 1pm say coming back.. still not back.. until 3+pm then he's back.. come back.. kept telling me to helo him call a girl.. coz that girl that he loves is going to be married soon... (ex gf, 10 years ago) kaoz.. i cant take it anymore.. told him everything abt work.. and he told me abt this.. then i burst out.. "hey!! 'shi lian' also have to work k.. cant u just settle all these first then talk abt that? u so late then come back.. alot of things are waiting for u to be done k.."
He told me he cant take it le.. and cried in front of me... can u imagine? My boss? A 30+ guy, broke down in front of me... I was like.. *shake head* then a customer ask him down for coffee.. and at least he's gone for the moment for me to recover...
Met up with baby and came home.. at least everything's fine for us..
Today, i'm going to double o to sort of have a farewell party for lynn... Been a long time since i've club.. hope today's fun.. at least the weekends is here.. gonna party and forget all those 'er xin' people and job...
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__ Wednesday, November 24, 2004 ;
Yesterday, met up with lynn after work at buona vista's taxi stand.. Stanrick went for a job interview earlier in the afternoon and i was excited to hear all about it.. coz, he got the job immediately.. Didnt see lynn standing at the bus stop.. then lynn came over to taxi stand to find us and claimed that she has been waving to us, everyone saw her, except us.. too engrossed in talking to each other.. hee.. sorry lynn...
Went over to holland village for dinner.. cant decide on what to eat.. walked around and finally settled on mexican food at a resturant called "Cha cha cha".. Three of us ordered abt the same food.. err.. dont know how to pronounce.. but anyway, think it tastes quite nice.. Chat up with lynn abt lots of things.. she told us abt her trip and her new job.. and of course her "xiao peng you".. talked abt alex too.. how he disgust her.. and my rights for my job.. realised that all along stanrick is right abt the work things.. just that i dont want to listen to him or let him win coz of the way he pointed it out to me.. hmm.. attitude man.. but i agree with lynn.. he's rather mature in handling these kind of things.. Baby went for a hair cut before his interview.. i think he looks cute.. make his head rounder.. haha... =P
After that, we went to coffee bean for some coffee.. that's my mistake.. (tell u all why later).. chatted somemore, made plans abt saturday,talked abt our past adventures and left holland village at close to 10pm..
Came home, maybe after the bathe, was quite cosy, doze off to sleep.. but stanrick called me some minutes later.. woke up but manage to "sleep" for a while.. then dont know why.. woke up again.. 12.15am.. from then on.. i tossed around my bed.. cant sleep at all.. 1.30am came, then 2.30am.. then 3.15am.. i remembered yesterday nite was raining, supposed to be quite a good weather to sleep.. cant sleep.. arrgghh.. tried to calm my mind and concentrate on listening to the sound of raindrops.. its a peaceful feeling.. but still cant sleep... then i realised.. shit.. must be that stupid iced mocha that i've drank.... coffee has actually no effect on me before 8.30pm.. after that i guess i'm dead.. cant sleep.. finally understand the torture baby went through when he sometimes tell me he cant sleep.... hmm.. i mean if u have nothing on the next day, its still ok.. but heck, i've got to work the next day and now... i'm tired the whole day.. feel quite sleepy... *yawnz*
That baby... still can take afternoon nap now.. sleeping like a pig now.. *xian mu* but haha.. from next week onwards.. no more le.. he will suffer like me.. got to wake up at 7+am everyday.. *grinz* But i think you must have did a great job during the interview.. thats why they called you within minutes... congrets baby...
Meeting up with selena later to pass her the caps and to take back All-In's cheque book.. Finally the caps came huh... after all the waiting and anticipation.. thanks clive.. I like mine alot.. Too bad cant let baby see his today.. not meeting him.. coz he needs to look after his granny.. hmm.. this reminds me of the day before i actually got together with him.. initially, he also told me he got to look after his granny... but luckily he came out to meet me later.. if not.. haha.. think i will not agree to be his gf le.. Anyway... chills.. 30 more minutes to go.....
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__ Monday, November 22, 2004 ;
Days with stanrick is getting better.. or at least i think it is... :)He's really doing his part in controlling his temper and talking out things with me.. guess i'll have to improve on this... =P
And and and.... he's just so sweet today.... really sweet... *wonders if ants will come* =P
- I'm gotta here.. meeting baby and selena in like less than half an hour's time..
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__ Saturday, November 20, 2004 ;
Saturday again... reached office at 9am.. the door is locked.. which means, alex is not in.. i've already expected it.. since he went to Dungeon Entertainment to deliver printed invoices and namecards yesterday.. He got $50 from the petty cash.. ask me to keep another $50 for him.. and he advance another $100 for next month.. kaoz.. make me troublesome to keep records of accounts.. Drink and drink and drink.. *shake head*
Immediately, i went into the production room and got the invoices from shunji matsuo to collate.. Vincent is coming at 11am to collect them.. Was rushing for time.. and this weili.. came only at 9.40am.. *shake head again* After collating, wait for uncle richard to glue and haiz.. no time to wait for it to dry.. i use vacuum to speed up the rate of drying so that richard uncle can cut and i can wrap it up for vincent... not bad.. proud to say that i've done it on time.. vincent came at 11.15am and i've got it done for him.. *applause* Alex forgot to do up a sample for vincent again.. hmm...
Later after work, got to meet selena and stephanie to go for Alex(My sec school friend's wedding).. Yesterday had a slight dispute as to whether to buy present or give ang pao.. three girls can be troublesome when each have their own opinions.. actually yesterday, me and selena saw this really nice champaign glass, in a pair.. thought that it can be a great gift.. but we dont want to buy.. coz we feel that it will disrespect stephie as we still have not ask for her opinions.. up till now.. still not settled.. but hopefully by the time we meet up with each other, there can be a conclusion..
After the wedding, held at a church, i've got to go with stanrick to hospital to see his granny.. she just had an operation yesterday... supposingly to be a day where i should look forward to.. but instead, maybe because of the way i ask things or talk again.. stanrick sounds very pek cek.. Hope he really wont be late later else we'll sure end up quarrelling.. i kept asking him why he still havent go cook his porridge, he told me its still early and sounded pek cek when replying.. alright.. since he thinks he knows how to manage his time well, i wont go and bugz him.. but if he's really late later, i'll sure get angry.. not becoz i cant wait for someone.. but for the fact that i've already told you to hurry and u still can use that kind of tone on me.. better prove to me i'm wrong......
Well, i guess.. maybe the problem lies with me.. i shouldnt probe into his things too much and treating him like a small kid.. i should just let him plan his things himself and do his things himself... like, i shouldnt ask him to sleep early, knowing that he has things to do early next day morning.. and the next day if i found out he doesnt sleep early and is very tired or cant wake up, i'll get angry.. guess i shouldnt... if he wants to sleep early, think he will... if he cant wake up the next day... just forgo the things he want to do..... *nOd Nod* Maybe then.. he wont be pek cek with me anymore.... i dont want him to think that i'm naggy or a nuisance....
*poof* got to go back to work.... yeah.. 30 more minutes to go....
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__ Friday, November 19, 2004 ;
Yeap Yeap, Lynn is back!! *happy happy* Received her call just now.. and i was like.. lynn??
She: "wah.. dont remember me already ah.."
Me: " No!! Just surprised to get a call from you.. thought u'll only be back tmr?"
She: "I miss you ma.. that's why i'm back early.. "
Me: "Ha ha.."
But.. really happy.. hee.. cant wait to meet up with her.. to listen to everything she has to say abt her trip.. Yeah yeah!!!
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__ Thursday, November 18, 2004 ;
oh... how blur i was this morning.. was actually looking forward to going gym with selena today.. the past few days has been sinful for me.. i ate quite alot.. haha.. especially yesterday evening, met up with selena and Ivy.. and Ivy treated us to Mac.. ate some nuggets and shared hot fudge ice cream with baby.. but i ate most of it.. haha.. and somemore.. went home for dinner.. ^_^ ya.. back to this morning.. as i was leaving my house for work, i had an uneasy feeling.. like i've missed out something... but i was rushing for time, so ran downstairs to the bus stop, boarded the bus that came.. and.. gosh!! i remembered what i've missed out.. i've forgotten my gym attire!! how blur can i get.. to forget that when i'm going to gym later? kaoz.. in the end.. had to call selena and cancel it to sunday.. sorry selena.. :)
And hey, a big thank you to you and Ivy.. You= selena for the crackers and Ivy for the Mac dinner..
Jiehui.. i think that the only one with the answer as to wat to do is yourself.. no one can tell you wat to do.. ask ur heart...... and be trueful.. if u find someone who is rich, with good education, but u dont love him.. will you be happy? if u stay with someone u love, but he has no education and no money (money is relatively important in future, no one can denied that).. will u still love him in future? Do u really really love keming? what if when u are out in the corporate world in future, and there is this guy who is rich, with good education who pursue you even though u're still with keming.. will u go with him and leave keming? All these points down to... have u closed ur options? If you've met a rich guy from ur university, but still u've not closed ur options, there will always be better guys out there.. think carefully abt the closing options, as it is very important.. I remembered once, someone told me this.. "I feel that i'm just a taxi to u.. someone u clinged onto when there's no one around, i'll bring u around, but when u've found the one u think is right for u, u'll definately let me go.. u just take me as a shelter, someone u need in that phrase of time.." Is keming that to you a taxi, or do u think the two of u can work something out in future, like ur business plan?
Jiayou ba.. dont think too much.. we girls like to worry alot abt future, even though we know that we cant predict the future.. Do what u want and dont regret... If u really want to be with keming and has closed all ur options, tell ur mum that.. i'm sure she'll understand... :)
Baby baby.. u are a very determined guy.. going for ur run every morning.. i salute u.. ^(oo)^ ok, i'll make myself clear here.. it wasnt a naked pix.. it was a blur nude artsy... sorry for that.. anyway, it wasnt the details i'm interested in.. i'm just quoting an example.. its all so long ago already.. u are not bian tai lah.. what matters now is that u dont do stupid things again.. *grinz*
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__ Wednesday, November 17, 2004 ;
Yesterday, met stanrick at cck mrt and we walked home together.. went home for dinner and to catch the last episode of 'The Champion".. i think its a really nice show and i especially like *Guo Jing Wen's character in the show.. i think that she's really strong..
Before that, went to lot 1 to buy herbal tea for baby (who knows it turns out to be so awful..) and vincent called.. quite surprised to hear from him and even more surprise to hear that he actually sounded different.. as in, happy? hmm.. or cheerful.. anyway, he's coming back on the 22nd and has agreed to go out with us on the 27th.. hee.. stephie.. 27th sure very fun one.. think alot of people are going, including stanrick's friend..
While walking home, me and stanrick chatted abt his friends etc.. and we talked abt different views regarding talking abt other people's behaviour behind others.. i think.. hmm.. ok, dont say out here.. but anyway, there's only one thing i want to say.. i feel that i really dont like people to talk abt others behind their back.. once, i have a friend.. jasmine.. we used to be very closed.. hugging each other whenever we see each other and telling each other our problems.. she has a bf then.. i didnt..i know she's very close to her bf.. telling him everything and anything.. there was once.. something happened to a mutual friend of ours.. jasmine got to know abt it too.. she went to tell her bf.. and then, her bf.. went to tell his good friend of his.. and this continues.. they frequent zouk.. so was this mutual friend of ours.. soon, wat happened to her was known by most of our mutual friends..
Even though that incident does not happens to me, i drifted apart from jasmine.. i feel that i cant trust her.. cant trust myself to tell her problems or secrets.. she will go and tell her bf and eventually, the same thing will happen..
In the past, stanrick has a little of that kind of character.. as in, he likes to share things with others.. be it good or bad things.. he does not really consider the feelings of others.. once, i saw a naked pix of a girl in his computer.. he told me before that he has a friend who posted naked pix in her friendster.. so he save it coz he wants to send it to his friends who wants to see.. i got mad.. really mad.. coz i feel why should u be so KPO? and.. if ur friends want to see, go see it themselves.. why must u send to them.. and have u consider the feelings of that girl? oh ok.. heck, u are going to tell me she posted her pix in friendster herself.. but.. hmm.. i dont know.. i just feel that u should meddle with others affair.. in the first place, u shouldnt even tell others abt the pix.. i'm not one who can understand what's this sharing thing between guys... but luckily, after that incident, stanrick has 'xue guai' le.. he kept everything between us simple.. in other words.. he has changed.. Yesterday, while talking to him abt those things, i have really realised the impact of changes he has made.. he has become someone who is simple, not meddling with others affairs, not poking his nose around people or things he doesnt really know.. he doesnt go around knowing people anymore, doesnt chat up with people or girls that he doesnt really know.. like wat he used to do in the past.....
i'm really glad that he turned out this way.. is it becoz he has become more matured or that i've influenced my thinking onto him? Is this change good or is it bad? Will he miss his old lifestyle of partying and knowing people? Does one change stay forever or is the old him still in his blood? i dont know.... watever it is, no matter if it is short live or it's going to last forever, i'll treasure the good memories now.... before i live to regret.... coz out of my 21yrs of life.. i know this is the happiest and most contented moment.... all thanks to STANRICK TAN...
Selena, saw ur blog... endure.. like wat u said, everyone goes through the bad period of life.. i went through it, came out.. dont know when's the next one.. but i'll fight it.. make sure u too... Stephie and i will be behind u all the way.. :)
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__ Friday, November 12, 2004 ;
40 more minutes to off work.. yeah.. hee.. normally, cant even count down.. but today, congrets, or thanks to Neo(a customer).. alex went for his coffee.. me and weili are free to relax for the last one hour.. we had been slogging in the meeting room, right from 9am till 4pm.. might be getting another backache again.. haha..
ANyway, tonite i'm going to outram park for dinner.. porridge porridge.. yum yum..Selena is coming along with us.. that silly gal.. so happy.. haha.. Thanks for the research.. i'm going to make us of this weekend and monday to look for more research and go through all of yours.. might even go to the library to see what other things can we come out with..
This coming sunday.. i'm going to be a good girl.. go with my parents to my youngest uncle's wedding.. finally huh.. hee.. think my daddy is quite happy.. Next week, i've got another church wedding to attend.. my sec school's friend, alex.. ok and.. one more week, lynn is coming back!! Wonder how far is she already.. so excited to hear everything from her.. haha..
There's something for me to look forward to everyday... that's seeing him, knowing that he's waiting for me to off work... it adds more meaning to my life with him around... Zhu tou, i'm talking abt u.. hahahha..
Life is good.. and it can be better if we think it can be.. so, stay positive and keep smiling.. :)
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__ Thursday, November 11, 2004 ;
~~ Yeah, i'm glad that today is a holiday for me.. Been really busy.. and that alex still dont want to look for part timers to come help me and weili.. I think uncle richard is the most kelian guy.. printing and printing.. non stop.. hahaha..
That stupid baby.. told me sweetly yesterday nite that he's coming down to my house, despite my protests to bring me to causeway point.. [I've told him i'll just meet him there] but he dont want... in the end.. haha.. i morning called him at 9am.. in the end.. its still me taking the mrt train down myself.. met him at marsiling.. and he's still slightly late.. wat a pig.. haha..
But we've had a relaxing day today.. had chicken rice for dinner even though initially we thought we could skip lunch... went causeway point, shop around abit, went cold storage and bought our stuffs for dinner.. cooked delicious dinner.. i really mean delicious, coz its better than the last time we've made it.. guess practice makes perfect huh.. *grinz*
Now i'm rotting on the floor, waiting for the show the champion to start.. its really a nice show..
Oh ya, forgot to thanks my baby.. he gave me a great massage yesterday.. coz i was aching all over.. went gym on tues, then sat in the meeting room yest for the whole day, carried papers, collate and staple things for the whole day.. argh.. tmr, the same thing is going to start again.. and all at a faster speed.. sianz..
And wat's the date tmr baby>?.. 7th months.. ^_^ jiayou wor....
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__ Saturday, November 06, 2004 ;
I've been so busy recently.. no time to update my blog.. there's so many things i want to write.. so many things i'm thinking of.. just no time to write everything down...
Its going to be a new year soon... what have i achieve this year? haiz.. not much i guess.. i'm gonna work double hard next year.. this is the first priority in my life next year.. gonna make something for myself..
Right now, there are so many things to settle.. but i just dont know how to start... What is going to become of me.. Am i really that bad a person? hmmm....... i need enlightenment... who can save me...
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__ Tuesday, November 02, 2004 ;
Everything's back to normal.. i hope.. :) Last week was a really terrible week for me.. or should i say the week before was not very good too.. me and my baby 'quarrelled' or should i say have arguements/ disagreements over even the slightest things.. this is what i call, baby giving me attitudes everyday, in turn lead to me giving him attitude.. then two of us will bu shuang.. but it will not last for more than a day.. however, the same thing continues again the next day..
Then last thursday, after baby's paper, he came down to buona vista to wait for me after my work.. We had a head to head quarrel all the way from buona vista back to CCK.. I was so mad that i called selena and went long john's silver to find her.. baby was very mad too.. he told me he'll go outside lot1 to wait for me.. Fine.. just let him wait.. But he came back minutes later.. Sat beside selena, which is opposite me.. he looks shag.. I ignored him and talk to selena.. he put his bag on the table and his head on his bag.. i couldnt see his expressions.. then we left long john's and walk back home.. we didnt talk to each other at all.. i was not angry anymore.. instead, i was feeling really sad.. where is this leading on to? I really dont want us to continue in this way..
Baby keep telling me to bear with him for these two weeks.. after his exams, everything is alright... but not that i dont want to bear with him.. i just feel that you must know how to handle stress and why is it exams gives u the right to show people attitude? We walked in silence for abt 10 mins.. he in front and me, slowly following behind.. then he stopped and waited for me.. this is when we started argueing again.. right in front of all passengers, beside the roads... I told him i cant stand it anymore.. tonite's the nite where we shall say everything we have to say.. no more bad feelings after that.. we sat at my void deck to talk.. abt everything.. within half an hour, everything's alright le.. :)
From then on, till today, we didnt quarrel anymore.. (though its a few days only, but we managed to come out from the past week's arguement) What i want to say here is that.. communication is really important between couples.. i really wanted to walk away that day.. since he wanted to walk away.. but i kept telling him to talk things out, else everything will be worst.. i'm glad that baby's back to his normal sweet self..
I'll give u a big big treat when ur exams over k.. no more sad face or angry face.. at least until ur next exams.. hahaha.. I really enjoyed the last weekend, though its quite simple.. at least can see u smile happily.. :)
I'm going to gym today with selena.. which means i cant see baby today.. yesterday also didnt get to meet coz he's having a paper today.. we've been together for abt 6+ months and for the past 5 months or so, we've meet up almost everyday, if not its only like 1 day we didnt meet.. today is the 2nd day i cant see him.. kind of miss him.. for his nonsense.. haha..wonders if he feels the same too.. kenna struck by lovesick..
Anyway, i'm feeling very sianz now.. feel that i'm being taken for granted in office.. hmm.. who can come and save me..never mind.. i must endure.. ^(oo)^
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__ Monday, November 01, 2004 ;
Counting Down.....
2 More days to go....
Before my trip to BangKok!!! =D
I didnt seem in the least bit excited about it earlier this week.. It is until today, i feel the excitement of it when i'm discussing it with Selena... Finally, i get to take a break from my work... (no work for fri, sat, mon and tues)hehe..
This trip is actually a family cum company trip and the best thing is... I get to share the room with Ivy and Selena.. So happy.. *noD Nod* Can get to go with auntie jane they all and my friends... its been a very long time since i went on a holiday with auntie jane and my grandmum...
There's alot of things i havent do.. I havent pack my bag.. havent plan what to bring.. (Ivy has already packed hers.. Selena brought out all the things she's going to bring).. I better hurry man.. hehe.. too last minute liaoz... I havent change money too and i havent go and buy the things that i need.. *shake head*.. better get them done by today...
Argghh... cant see my baby for 5 days... luckily he has started work..(hey, its not fair.. he's earning more than me)if not guess he'll be bored.. I'm sure gonna miss him... =P
Lynn is leaving on sunday... cant send her off too... and Stephie.. is going to china on the 9th.. Me and Selena is coming back on the 7th.. if we cant get to meet up on the 8th, it will mean the 3 of us cant get to see each other for abt 3 weeks.. ha.. sure gonna miss her too.. Stephie, once u're back better give us a call man.. we're meet up straight for dinner or wat... and pls specify what u want from bangkok.. Else, nothing for u.. *grinz*
Today... Alex is not in office again... I really have nothing to say abt him anymore.. give up hope le.. Still have not teach him how to issue invoices etc.. haiz.. guess when i'm back from bangkok, sure gonna be very busy with all the things... but, heck man... =D not gonna let an idiot spoil my mood...
Oh ya.. one more thing to update.. guess i really cant drink anymore.. 'jiu liang' is getting very lousy.. that day at double o, didnt drink alot.. but was feeling quite high.. quite fun... too bad, didnt stay long in the dance floor.. was accompanying my friends near out table... but, when i'm on the way home and at home, feeling damn giddy.. cant even go eat supper even though i was very hungry.. (lynn, stanrick and i shared a MacDonald's meal before clubbing).. went home sleep immediately.. damn.. hate that kind of feeling... But everyone agreed that sat is a fun nite.. =D
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