__ Monday, January 31, 2005 ;
Yesterday.... I woke up early in the morning... 8.30am, went down to the market, bought some chickens and vegetables... came back and cook for stanrick... Sweet yeah?~ Its a sunday.. i can sleep late.. but i forced myself to wake up... *lol..
I cooked fried rice and chicken soup for him... packed and bring it to his place for him... I guess it taste alright... He finished up everything and claims its nice... But, nice no hugs or watever to show appreciation? *haha..
Well, the letter that i've been waiting for has come... and the big day is this coming thursday... I cant screw things up.. once is enough, i must through it once and for all..*pray* i must be calm and confident.... Hope all the calmness and confidence will come to me... haha...
I've taken that day off, so after that, will be heading to down with stanrick and probably Selena.. she has taken off too... Yeah!!~~
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__ Saturday, January 29, 2005 ;
11am.... 2 more hours to go....
Freking sianz.. Freking irritated.. I hate it when i'm doing something and u come and ask me to other things... Haiz, as if only you have work loads, i dont have my own responsibilities and tasks....
Later, i will be going bugis with Stanrick.. to shop for his CNY's clothes... Haha.. will be dragging him to the temple with me too.. Saw some horoscope thingy that this year -Pig- Fan Tai Sui.. Better be safe than sorry, I'm going to pray... ^_^
After than will be going for Raymond's birthday dinner... Hmm, more like Selena's birthday as yesterday we were discussing and helping raymond to plan where to go and what to do... End up decided dinner at Swedsens-Causeway Pt.. Maybe KTV after that? Or maybe not...... Will update again....
Enjoy your weekend peeps!!!
Oh yah, hsiao hui msg me yesterday nite... I really dont know how to help her with her feelings and problems... but all i can do is to listen... Hope everything will be fine for her soon... :)
[[Everything that happens have their reason for happening]]----- Stay Positive
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__ Thursday, January 27, 2005 ;
It has been so long since stanrick last waited for me at buona vista's bus stop(on a weekday).... think after his school reopens and he has got to work. His school reopens for 3 weeks, almost a month.... Wah.. Still remember when he first go to work and is the training period for a month(last dec), he waited for me at buona vista's bus stops everyday.. except once a week when i'm meeting the gals.... Sweet rite... :)
TODAY finally can get to see him waiting for me at buona vista's bus stop le... =] The feeling of just getting down bus 91 and seeing him is just so totally awwww.....
Even if we'll just take the mrt home, i'm feeling :)... Even when we quarrel and i say i dont feel like seeing him, (zhui ying xin ruan) when i got down the bus and see him, i just melted.... *lol
Its a place for memories....
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Has Stopped2:40 PM ;
__ Tuesday, January 25, 2005 ;
Wait....
He called me 10 mins later.... Saying he wants to come meet me... Coz he thinks for today, he only went to work... 9am till 5.30pm.. How can he give me the excuse he's tired...then what will happen to days when he needs to study and work? He told me he must stick to his principle.. to come and meet me.... If he always use the excuse of tired, how can he even claim that he will spend all his free time with me...
I told him not to come.. coz i'm tired too.. wants to go home earlier.. but he says he WANT to come....
Hmm... guys are funny.. i'm prepared for him not to meet me today.. didnt even flare up... But he gives in.... 'Chi ruan bu chi ying'? Is that it....?
Anyway, i'm quite touched by his words and actions-to be.... :)
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He's not meeting me tonight.... He's very tired... Wanted to drag himself to come and meet me coz he dont want me to be angry.. But i dont like to force people.. He's already tired and have the mindset of not meeting... so dont meet lor... Meet only when he comes down willingly.
Shrugs.
Have to get used to this kind of life.... must be understanding.. must be independent....*still trying
My leg hurts... the whole day.. i'm pretty tired myself... guess that must have explained my moodiness for today.... And i only had a glass of apple juice for lunch, after my breakfast of roti prata with Selena.. I'M HUNGRY NOW!!! A hungry person is an angry person... Haha.. so better dont come and 'Re' me....
Think will go straight home after dinner... no more dilly dallying.... *stretchZ
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Has Stopped5:50 PM ;
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Nothing much to update today...
Been quite a boring day for me.. Met up with Selena in the morning for breakfast... Then went to the bank.. Freaking alot of people.. Getting pek cek.. coz I've got tonnes of things to do in the morning.. as in before 11am... Reached office at 9.45am.. Work work work...... Getting worried.. Sales for this month quite jialek.. I've just done abit of the P&L... *shake head* Been doing cold calling... Sianz...
Its one of the days where i'm having my mood swings.. dont really feel like talking... But i also dont know what's wrong... Stanrick called me and its like real funny.. nothing to talk to him abt.. usually i'll be quite talkative.... *sigh*
Meeting up with the girls later... Stanrick will be coming to meet me too if he's not so tired.....
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Has Stopped2:30 PM ;
__ Monday, January 24, 2005 ;
Grumbles......
Its MONDAY again.. I hate mondays!!!! Arrrghh... Sianz...
Anyway, updates on my weekends....
SATURDAY: Ended work and met stanrick at buona vista mrt... I waited for 20 minutes for him.. hmm.. coz i'm early and he's late.. Took a train down to outram park.. Shop around for awhile and went to eat Porridge... Then, continued our shopping.. chinatown is really filled with people... arrghh, just walked around aimlessly... But baby saw a shop that repairs handphone and thought of repairing his(From mine to his)haha.. N6100.. That time dropped into pond.. think something wrong with the sound board.. no sound at all.. cant ring.. Luckily, they can repair it and it costs only $28!! Plus one month warrenty.. hmm.. not bad not bad.. and baby is so darn happy.. coz he claims that he likes that phone..... Continued walking around the market.. then walked back to outram park MRT... Wanted to go to town.. On the way back, we went to check out the rates for Oriental Party World for SAT and SUN.. turns out the rates are quite cheap.. considered weekends.. We were debating if we should go sing... Walked over to Pearl Centre to withdraw money and its our KTV session!! Ha.. we are always like this eh.. go by feelings.. want to go then go le.. forget all the plannings.. Haha..Sang from 4pm till 7.45pm.. Haha.. quite shoik, but quite rusty.. coz very long never sing le.. Hmm.. must make it a point to go KTV more often.. =]
After that, we took a train down to City Hall... Went to raffles city's perlini silvers.. wanted to look at couple rings.. but too bad they have limited design and sizes.. so we decided to walk over to suntec city... Baby saw his friend, Elaine and Daniel.. He's very very happy.. coz they are his very close friends from JC whom he has seldom contact due to misunderstandings.. but now that the misunderstandings are cleared and he happened to see them on the streets again, he's practically flying.. haha... But due to time constraint (its already 8.40pm), he didnt spend much time talking to them.. we went over to suntec.. oh yah, did i mention my cousin saw me too? He msg me and told me we are in the same cabin in the train.. but i didnt see him.. wah, i really that shoot bird? *faints* The rings design are suntec's perlini silvers are prettier and more in variety and sizes... We chose ours, bought it and wore it immediately.. Haha.. Baby says the ring has significance becoz its not really a ring, as in its not really round.. its interlocked by several segments, turns forming a circle.. He says that the segments are interlocked meaning that we are bonded, but life or humans are not perfect(explaining the not really round), thus there are cracks in between.. but even if there are cracks, we are still bonded.... Hmm... So Chim.... *lol* Then, we took a cab home and had dinner at the coffee shop near my place......
SUNDAY: Woke up at 9am.. My mom and dad are at home.. so went out to talk to them... Called stanrick at 10.30am.. he's granny decided not to go chinatown le.. so we can just slack at his place today.. Met him at marsiling at close to 12pm.. Went to buy pork bones.. or is there something like this? Haha... Wanted to cook Bak Kut Teh for dinner... Went back to his place for lunch.. I msg Selena and told her that tmr dont go for KTV le.. coz i just went with stanrick yesterday.. then asked if she wants to meet and go Kranji instead.. coz we were actually saying go one of these days... However, i didnt get any replies from her.. which is quite unusual.. she always reply her messages... Then, i was getting sleepy, so went to sleep while listening to the CDs we bought yesterday... Slack around after that and went to cook dinner.. turns out to be pretty nice.. =] After that, surf the net for some nice ring tones for my phone.. Hee.. so happy, coz finally got time to find nice ring tones le.... Abt 9pm, i took a cab home....
On the way back, i called Selena.. Since still havent get her msg mah..
ME: "Hey, why u never reply my msg?"
SHE: "Coz dont feel like replying mah"
ME: "EH?"
SHE: "Why u all like this.. Do already then tell people.. GO sing already then tell me.. should have told me before that or what mah.."
ME: "We just went there by chance.. then the rates are cheap.. thats why we went.. also, i dont think you are very interested in going to sing.."
SHE: "I'm ok..."
ME: "So tmr how?"
SHE: "I'm pretty tired.. dont think i want to go kranji.."
ME: "Ok lor.." *Disappointed*
Then we proceeded to talk abt other things......
I was quite disappointed.. even though we still chatted pretty much like before... I still feel we must clear things up... i mean, maybe its our fault for going on sat and not discussing with her.. i feel maybe she should not let that affect us going to kranji.. since thats what we have discussed weeks before... The reason why we went singing on SAT is becoz firstly, the rates are cheap.. we always have the mentality that its gonna be expensive on Sat.. Secondly, we have actually arranged to go singing last saturday.. but it was cancelled becoz Sel and Tim cant make it.. Then, last thurs, i've arranged and say this coming sunday.. everything is onz in the beginning, but then Sel msg me again that she has got lesson on Sun.. so cant make it le.. So say want to change to SAT or MON after work.... And then it was arranged on MON after work...
BUT me and stanrick are really tired of waiting and changing.. we really want to sing.. and since the rates are so cheap.. so we went lor....
I hope you can understand my point of view.... and if standing on your point of view, i know u will get disappointed too.. coz you may want to sing very much too... but we go ahead singing and not wait for u... furthermore still arrange to go on MON... Heres a big SORRY to u... =] Peace?
Haiz... Its a long day to go...... Gotta Jiayou and hope today pass faster .. Bye peeps!!!!
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__ Saturday, January 22, 2005 ;
Stanrick can make really nice and yummy cheese cake.... Sooo nice.. becoming my favourite on my list... Haha...
Went to meet baby and his granny at around 11+pm yesterday... took a cab to marsiling Sheng Siong.. His granny wanna do his shopping.. so we just accompanied her and take her things for her... Me and baby are having kind of cold war.. so we didnt talk much during the shopping... guess his granny kind of sense it, coz she seems quiet too... but she's a nice lady.. keep asking me if i want to buy things.. and even suggested going for coffee or KFC.. however, we are both not in the mood to eat.. so went back to his house...
Wanted to meet Selena, coz she's free from 1pm till 6pm... However, after shopping with his granny, its quite late and we had no time to meet up le.. But still, thanks gal for being there.... =]
Had lunch at his place... have some talk... then okay le.. Rot for a while, then went to buy poh piah for his granny and bubble tea for me.. We also went to rent some VCDS...
Went back to his house and watch "Golden Chicken".. stupid show... haiz.. Then took an hour's nap, went downstairs to eat his cheese cake and had cup noodles for dinner... coz, we thought his granny cooked, thats why laced around till so late... In the end, no food to eat.. got to get cup noodles.. Haha..
Yeah.. Ending work soon.. 10 more minutes to go... Meeting baby to go Chinatown... finally.. our long awaited trip to chinatown... I want to thanks HIM for going with me.. coz i know he dont like crowds... but still.. New year mah.. must go and do some shopping, have some new year mood...
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__ Thursday, January 20, 2005 ;
Feeling kind of sianz now... Haiz.. was supposed to meet stanrick this evening.... End up, he cant meet me le....
This afternoon around 12.30pm....
HIM: "Marcus called me just now.. asked if i want to meet him.. i told him no.. i'm meeting you.. so i'll meet him on sat morning k..."
I was feeling kind of happy becoz he has chose to meet me... since he has already promised me...
ME: "okay..."
45mins later when i called him after my lunch...
ME: "hey, so where are you meeting marcus on sat? You just go ahead and meet him.. then i'll see where to meet you after my work..."
HIM: "he's coming to PS later for an appointment at 7.30pm.. so i see if i finish work early today.. then maybe can meet him before his appointment.."
ME: "why?"
HIM: "i've thought abt it, think that if i go out early on sat, i'll waste the whole day coz i'll be out for the whole day. If i meet him today then i'll have time to do my project on sat morning..."
ME: "ok, then are u still meeting me?"
HIM: "I see how.. dont want to commit abt meeting him.. let you know at 3pm.."
AT 2.15pm, i received his msg.... telling me he's meeting marcus...
ME: "So, means we're not meeting already?"
HIM: "I see what time i finish then let u know can?"
ME: "Can you let me know earlier so that if you're not meeting me i can have my own plans..."
HIM: "Then i'll go home after meeting him..."
ME: "OK"
I was feeling really disappointed..... He dislike people changing plans at the last minute... Me too.. Feel as if he has put me aeroplane... Tonight Selena is going to chinatown with her sis.. Ask if i want to join her.. I wanted to shop at chinatown.. but stanrick ask me to go on Sat.. i was actually looking forward to going with him and shop with him.... So decided not to join Selena at chinatown....
He kept saying sorry.... This is the first time and the last time... But, whats the point of saying sorry? Why do you even have to make urself have the chance to say sorry... And, why must there be a first time in the beginning...
TUG OF WAR---------------------------- MARCUS VS LIYUN ------------------------------
*~~ MARCUS WON
A BIG HAIZ.................... Guess i really have to find my own things to do le... Wanted to go watch movies... But like no movies.... :( Got really find things to entertain myself tonite.. tmr dont have to work... can stay up late... yet i have to spend this evening alone... arrrgghhhhh......
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Has Stopped3:50 PM ;
__ Tuesday, January 18, 2005 ;
heee.. Always expect the unexpected... *lol*
Remember i mention in my previous post or is it previous previous post.. that i failed in matchmaking?
Well.. i think its still too early to tell... *grinZ*
This morning, i msg huiping to ask her how is her cycling on sunday and "shun Bian" ask.. My kor fail is it....
HER REPLY:" huh.. no leh.. i never say he fail.. in fact i find him very nice and humourous.."
I was like..... Hahahha..
ME:" kor, how u find my friend?"
VINCENT:"cute.. i having training.. call you later.."
See..? Thats already a kind of start liao lor... yeah.. guess must find more time for the two of the to meet... =]
Days seem to pass by very slowly... I've send my XXX on the 9th.. which is last sunday.. now only one week and three days has passed.... and i'm supposed to wait for 2 to 3 weeks!! I'm getting impatient!! Stanrick is getting impatient for me too... asked me 2 times liaoz.. once during last week and once today.. hmm..making me nervous...
I'm so bored in office nowadays... must do something to pull in sales liao...ANYONE OUT THERE WANT TO PRINT THINGS??? NAMECARDS?? INVOICES?? *lol*
Remembered it was Janice's birthday(18 Jan) this morning when i woke up... Belated for one day.. was debating if i should msg her... later decide on NO... Was talking to Selena this morning.. she told me she msg Janice yesterday but no response... Luckily i never msg her... Otherwise, will be waste of money and effort....
Will be meeting up with the girls later in the evening for dinner..... :)
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Has Stopped2:00 PM ;
__ Monday, January 17, 2005 ;
Yes.. Its quite a fun weekend for me... :)
SAT: At 1pm, vincent kor msg me ask me where am i.. I told him at work but leaving soon.. he told me he's still at home.. but he's going to take a cab over.. hmm.. not bad for the first impression(he's going to be early..) oh ya.. told him not to smoke too.. as stan says first impression important.. Met stanrick at buona vista and we took the train down to somerset.. reached there at abt 1.55pm.. Vincent is already there.. we waited till abt 2.05pm before huiping appears... Introduced the both of them... and decided to go up for some lunch... Went into billy bommers... Share a sandwich and fries with baby... i didnt eat much, coz i've taken breakfast.. and drank my fav rootbeer float.. =]
The atmosphere is quite tensed up... Huiping is very quiet.. Vincent is very shy.. Stanrick knows vincent, but this is also the first time he's meeting up with huiping.. so.. most of the time, i'm doing the talking... After lunch, its abt 3.15pm.. we decided to go walk around.. Stanrick and i wanted to go take the card photo.. but its so damn packed... lazy to wait and seeing so many people really irritate the hell out of me.. in the end, we saw a machine with not so many people queueing.. so we went there and take... It turned out to be okay only.. I like the first photo we took together better... Slowly, Huiping and vincent exchanged a few words... :)
We went to OG but found nothing there.. walked around for a while.. but i find it weird, coz its like all of them are shopping around WITH ME.. as in, i'm shopping for my things and they are following.. i dont like it.. lost the mood to shop and suggested to go some place to sit down.. then we went to TCC... Huiping's friend came and join us at abt 5pm.. talked alot of rubbish there... abt clubbing, people vomitting etc etc.. had some good laughs.. Selena and Tim cant make it to come out.. coz tim's tired.. so no choice, our KTV session has to be cancelled.... Stanrick and i actually wanted to go watch a movie.. Phantom of the opera.. but the show is like so late.. 10pm at PS.. so, in the end.. decided to just shop around town then go over to jurong east then lot1 to get some vcds and go home.....
All of us left TCC at abt 5.45pm and we walked over to PS... we separated our ways there as its really not convenient to shop together.. huiping and her friend went to do their own shopping, vincent went to play arcade and me and baby went to shop around... There's the lingerie fair.. went to shop around and i bought 2pairs and 2 G-string.. My baby is really not shy abt it.. and i'm comfortable enough to let him shop with me.. hmm.. vincent fled when he saw the fair.. says its weird and paishe.. haha.. guess some guys are like this... hmm.. got some unexpected expenditures le.. Wanted to get some tops for myself.. but couldnt find anything i really like.. and its 7pm le.. Told baby we have to leave PS by 7pm.. vincent came to look for us.. he's going clubbing later... Then, stanrick's friend, henry called.. asked baby to go clubbing.. but he said no.. he's busy.. haha... We walked out of PS with vincent.. and while i'm standing there waiting for them to finish smoking, i heard some great retro music... very tempted...turned around and asked baby... want to go clubbing? Think he's tempted too.. haha.. I called my friends, stephie and Hsiao HUi.. both of them onz abt going... So, it turned out that we're going to double O for the night.... Hahaha...
Went to eat some fries at Olio cafe while waiting for Hsiao Hui.. then made our way to Double O.. Reached at 10pm.. really empty.. we went to play some pool.. stephie came at 10.45pm... Drank some and went to dance... While we were dancing halfway and i was pretty high, hsiao hui broke down and cried... Stephie led her out of the dance floor and by then she's sobbing and shaking... Having relationship problems.. haiz.. After talking to her and resting and when her crying stopped, we went to drink abit again and have another round of dancing... Overall, it was quite fun.. But still, i regretted going.. we left at abt 2am and went back home.. I was feeling really really tired.. I woke up at 6.30am SAT morning and together with alcohol, really made me very tired... and at the same time, i'm really hungry.. didnt really eat much that day and me and baby didnt have dinner... :( I guess i'm getting old.. a night of clubbing out can make me grumble so much.. haha..
SUN: Woke up at 10.30am.... No hangovers at all, coz didnt really drink much that day, but was very very hungry... Met stanrick at 12.15pm.. that pig.. ask him to wake me up at 10.30am.. in the end i woke up myself and he's still sleeping till 11.15am.. went for lunch, back to his house to slack and watch vcd.. almost fell asleep watching the show HONEY... msg alot with hsiao hui.. but i'm really bad at consoling people.. just let her say what she wants.. i'm her listening ear.. :) stephie called, talked for a while.. was really too tired.. went to sleep.. 3.30pm-6pm.. *shoik.. haha... Went downstairs for dinner with stanrick.. his granny cooked curry chicken.. hmm.. gummy.. then went upstairs to watch soccer with him.. Singapore vs Indonesia.. Yeah!! Singapore won... =] Then, end of relaxing and slacking day... went home at 9pm....
AND today... is monday again..... Same old thing.. Monday blues.. but luckily this week only need to look forward to thursday.. Friday is public holiday.. haha.. But, SAT i have to come back and work half day... stupid stupid... *yawnz so sleepy...
So far, havent heard from huiping or vincent... guess, no chemistry ba.. Haha.. match making failed.........
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Has Stopped11:30 AM ;
__ Saturday, January 15, 2005 ;
Yes.. Finally.. this week has come to an end.. working now.. hope time can past faster.. going out with baby, vincent kor and huiping later.. *wink
Hopefully tim can sneak out of his house... then selena and tim can join us le.. *pray hard*
Anyway, this is to TIM:~
Hey, you dislocated ur arm, pls pls take good care of urself... I dont want my good fren to be too upset and worried abt u... I think u scare the hell out of her yesterday.. And this morning when she's talking to me abt u and ur arm, think she looks quite distracted and sad too... U make her worry, its as good as making me worry k... so, pls.. :)
JIEHUI:~
I saw what u have written in ur blog.. I pray that u will be alright.. nothing will happen to u... Do remember to post or msg us the results of ur check up.. Even though HE might not be interested, WE are interested and hope that all bad things will go away on ur part... u deserve to have ur happiness... No matter wat, JIAYOU!! ;)
BABY:~
You are a silly shit, an insensitive creature, full of nonsenses and craps... nevertheless, you are still the only one i love.. Do take care of yourself too as you have to juggle between studies, projects, work, family, friends and ME.... Dont make me nag and nag at you... I'm still young.. not 50 yet.. *grInZ*
STEPHIE:~
You are such a sweetie, always there when i have problems... I will always be there for you if you have any problems.. I'm sure Selena will too.. AND one BAD point abt you is that you are too passive... Cant call or ask us out if we never call you huh.. Too SHY huh.. the hell with that man... Whats friends or should i say, good pals for when u need them and they dont appear... So, just take out ur hp, dial our numbers or go to address book and press call... simple as that.. i make myself clear? Haha.. otherwise, we'll make it a point to bomb ur phone everyday when kel leaves... *evil grin*
EVERYONE out there... ENjoy ur weekends!! CHeers....
Ok, shall update my blog soon again... gotta go work le.. Ciaoz!!
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Has Stopped10:30 AM ;
__ Thursday, January 13, 2005 ;
Here's something by stanrick.... Something he told me long ago, further reemphasized few days ago....
HIM: " For relationships, 1st year is usually the most important and most difficult.. why? Coz, it should be during this time that both couples be open to each other, know each others' faults/habits/problems, trash out those that you dont like... quarrel and argue till you're satisfied that that is what u can accept in future.. in other words, talk out everything u dont like.. be yourself.. dont hide... after the first year, since all these are already out, for the rest of the years, its for u to strengthen ur bonds and relationships...."
Paused for a few minutes.. we looked at each other....
HIM AGAIN: " You know why is it that some people can be together for 3 years, 4 years or 7 years and then later say that they are not suitable for each other, what dont like their faults or problems etc... its becoz for the 1st year, they are still at their honey moon period where they try to hide themselves... all those bad habits, faults, they tried to hide it from their partners and make their relationship perfect... maybe becoz they are just too afraid of losing the other partner that they dont want to be themself or becoz they want to impress their partners... however, all of u know that once there's faults/problems/bad habits with that someone, its hard to totally get rid off... maybe u can disguise it, but not kick it away.. eventually, when they feel that the relationship is stable, they will gradually show out all these problems... it is then that real problems occur... their time to then go through wat should have been gone through in the 1st year.... lets say these problems occur only in the 3rd year where it should be in the 1st year, and ultimately u realise that you cant stand it and wants to break off, it will mean that u have wasted the 3 years for nothing when u can actually only waste like 1 year plus? "
When there is problem or something u dont like abt the other person, i feel that you should just say it out or tell him/her... dont endure or tolerate in hope that they will change.. eventually, it will drag and drag till a point where nothing said can help the situation..... trash everything out, tell him/her what u really think... dont say ok if its not ok.... make sure everything is really ok, no bad feelings, then u say ok.... i believe that u should talk through every problems.. dont just sleep it off or forget it or act blur.. ultimately, the same problem will arise again, given some period of time.... then its like dragging....
SO, jiehui.... u should let keming know everything... just trash everything out with him... otherwise, he wont know what he's facing... guys are just purely too stupid and by the time they figure it out themselves, its usually too late.. the girls has already suffered injustice for a long time.... If he really loves u and wants to be with u... he will change whatever u dont like for u... what u have to do is ask him if he wants to change.. and give him time.... Sometimes, pure forgetting is not the way in life.... i'm sure u will meet with the same problem again and again in future if u do not solve things now.... u must jiayou.. coz i know u treasure this relationship alot... i really hope u and keming can work out.. coz, its like partly i'm the one getting the two of u together.... JIAYOU!!
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Here i am.. blogging for the second time of the day.....
Yes... i'm plain bored...
And.. dont know why, kenna struck by lovesick.... Haiz.. i'm really missing HIM... Put down the phone with him at 1.10pm this afternoon... He has to work... cant use the phone after that... Then, called me at 5.05pm, during his break.. told me he will off work only at 6pm... Means the whole afternoon, for 4 hrs, I didnt get his calls or messages... Not that used to it... hmm.. But guess i'll have to get used to it sooner or later... He'll be studying and working for at least 7 to 8 more months... though only work part time, but it means that our fri and sat evening will be gone... and two of the weekdays evening will be gone too.... sad case right... then yesterday he told me maybe he even have to work on sundays... I was like so disappointed... But he is still so happy, telling me the pay is x1.5.. Hmm, must learn from him.. work first, then relationships... Luckily later he told me is once in a blue moon... Haiz.. *Must be understanding... must be independent.... He promised to spend whatever free time that he has-(minus off lessons,work,projects,sleep) with me... Though not as much as last time, but at least something ba...
Still, i'm feeling... haiz... but never mind.. just have to find more things to do to occupy my time... Hehe.. guess now, i'll have time to go exercising and maybe even do some readings or research.....
But, i really miss him alot today..... He was like rushing to school in the morning, then straight after lesson end at 12.30pm, he has to rush to work... we dont really have time to talk... Maybe also becoz i'm too relax today.. that explains why i keep thinking of him..... :)
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Has Stopped5:30 PM ;
__ Wednesday, January 12, 2005 ;
Yeah.. Jiehui, u're right.. should forgive and forget..
and here i am... have already forgiven him... though yesterday nite was a tough one... but to make clear, he lied to me coz its a white lie.. he didnt want me to anyhow think... but, still i prefer U to let me know the truth lah... true, maybe i cant handle it... but i dont like to be keep in the dark.... NO more lies... else, you're turn into a PIG... thats what u said ok... *grinz*
Actually, i think i'm quite easy to pacify... supposed to meet selena and stephie for dinner yesterday... sorry girls.. really no mood for that.. i'll make it up for u all soon... sorry ah... I sincerely apologise for putting u two aeroplane... in the end u all also didnt meet up....
i'm really easy to pacify.. went home... HE called me and say he wants to come down.. he's lucky.. i on my phone for that little while and he managed to get me.. (off my hp yesterday)... Then, he came over to my place.. went into my room and talk.... he asked me to shut up for 5 minutes... in the end i really shut up... for abt 15 minutes? he keep talking non stopped.... When i finally talk, i say.. i dont give a damn.... that pisses him off... he says ok and wants to leave... although i really want him to leave, but yet i also dont want him to leave.. instead, i told him to tell me everything and settle things... guess he's pai she to create a scene in front of my mum... so he told me to go downstairs.... I went.. we talk.. for half an hour? And.. i'm really to forgive him... easy huh... Haiz.. Asked him to go up for dinner since the both of us have not eat yet... Its already 9.20pm... Then he stayed for a while... till 10pm.. then went home le...
Its our 9th months anniversary today... he sent me an e-card... hmm.. i sent him one too... 2 days ago.. but he didnt receive.. and it is becoz of this e-card... that sort to led to our quarrel yesterday huh... Ironic.. haha..
Anyway, think i'll just forgive and forget, since..... there isnt any harm done...
I'll post up some photos... actually wanted to post yesterday.... but didnt have the chance.....
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__ Tuesday, January 11, 2005 ;
I like this photo.... But he hates it... says he looks fat.. haha 
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HE likes this photo.... think becoz he looks cute here....
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HIM, acting cool.... took this photo while i'm asleep... ZI LIAN!!!
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ME, trying to act cute.......
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There's something about human beings which i just dont understand.. i was like this in the past.. but i find it too difficult to keep track.. thus, i've changed.. being truthful and being myself is still the easiest.. but i still dont understand why people still tend to do it if it is so difficult.. finding the easier way out? However, if u look at it carefully, you will still ultimately realise its rubbish.. u make urself do further and further.. deeper and deeper...
SO what is it that i'm talking abt?
Liars... Lies............
One lie led to another... People always get into a situation where i do not know how to answer the next question or they do not want to be truthful..so they lie to get out of the situation.. however, have you people realise that by lying that one time, you will have to lie the other time?
For eg, if ur gf/bf ask you.. who are you with just now? You are actually with a female/guy friend.. purely friends.. however, you say... oh.. i'm with so and so... of the same sex... maybe A... you lied one time... then maybe, the next day ur gf/bf saw A and ask.. hey, so hows yesterday meeting? my bf and gf say bla bla bla.... u will have to get A into lying too... or if u suay suay say... oh.. yesterday my friend mention this or yesterday i went this place...... then ur gf/bf will ask.. thought u say u went to another place? In that instance, you will to think of another lie to cover up.... these goes on and on... isnt it tiring? Eventually, u will forget what lies you've made.. coz truth are things that happens to us and easier to remember..
Ask yourself... why not just come clean and say the truth? Everything will be better... for u and for other partners/ persons involved... explain everything clearly.. i'm sure the other person will know ur motive and not misunderstand.. rather than u lying.. u know the consequences? Its more hurtful, worst if the other partner finds out abt all ur lies.... then all the trust/foundation that you've build will be gone.... not matter if the lie is for good or for bad.....
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__ Monday, January 10, 2005 ;
This is how my sat and sunday goes....
SAT: Went to work in the morning till around 1pm.. was quite a boring day.. becoz i've finally finished my P&L.. then there's practically like nothing for me to do.. Alex left early yest, at 4pm.. then this morning called me and told me he msged me at 6+pm yest, told me he didnt bring his office keys out.. kaoz.. i didnt even receive his msg.. anyway, heck care.. just take it as an excuse for him to go out and drink.. in the end, he got flu and blamed me for me.. Zzzz..
Rushed out at exactly 1pm.. Weili drove me to buona vista to meet stanrick.. we've got to reach orchard hotel by 2.15pm.. going for a seminar by MOE on teaching as a career.. the seminar lasted 2hrs.. ended at 4.30pm.. I was really hungry.. as i ate my brunch at 10am.. they have the tea reception.. and stanrick grabbed 2 pastry for me.. Haha.. We actually wanted to go Chinatown's "Mei shi jie" to eat stingray... but too bad.. its raining.. then he wanted to go boat quay and eat Indian curry.. something like this.. walked to forum.. but the taxi queue is so damn long.. changed our mind instead... walked over to wheellock place and ate at NOOCH... As i have already ate one and a half pastry, i cant really finish my food.. ate half and pushed the other half to stanrick.. haha.. end up he's so damn full he kept complaining.. We went to walk around, saw there's sales at MANGO, i went in and bought a blouse.. Wanted to get my pink bottom at giordano.. went to the one at wisma and taka.. but it seems they are not selling it... hmm.. sianz half.. Went to taka and baby bought a blue blanklet for me... then went to beard papa.. he wants to get the puff.. wanted to buy 5 to give to my family members.. but was nagged by me.. end up only buying 3.. haha.. continued to walk around till abt close to 8pm.. then we headed home.. saw Karen and Clive at wisma, on our way to the train station... Reached home at close to 9pm... ate our puffs and stanrick went back home.... I took a story book and curl up in bed and read till abt 11+pm then Zzzzz....
Well, its getting more and more healthy for me right.. i mean.. my lifestyle... Haha..
SUN: Woke up at 9am.. read my book, got ready to leave my house at 10.45am.. Wanted to go causeway point with stanrick.. but in the end, too lazy to go.. changed our mind.. I suddenly feel like watching "Shou sheng nan nu" by andy lau and sammi cheng.. even thought i've watch before, but its so long ago and i've heard the song by sammi cheng- bu neng cheng shou de gan dong.. suddenly really feel like watching.. called baby.. asked him abt it.. he has never seen it before.. so great.. i went to lot1's laser fair.. wanted to buy it.. but they dont have le.. luckily they have the ones for borrowing.. only have to pay $2.. ahha.. thats even better.. met stanrick at marsiling, went for our lunch, went sheng siong, bought alot of tidbits and meat to cook for dinner and then back to his house.. went to fill in my application form.... then, we were all set for the show.. second time watching it.. but still feel its very nice... :) after that, dont know why i'm so tired, i went to take a 1 hour's nap.. while he continued watching tv.. woke up and went downstairs with him to cook dinner... he's cooking sweet and sour pork for me.. :P i think it looks great.. but dont want to compliment him too much... *grinz* had a very full dinner.. went upstairs to watch S.H.E's concert.. my brother got the disc from dont know where.. after a while, his aunt called him down to eat cake.. it was his cousin's birthday... kaoz.. went downstairs for cake again.. i think i'm really getting fat... eat and eat.. haiz.. really need to plan some days for exercising le.. went up and continue watching the concert.. gives me the urge to go singing.... then, went home at 9pm...
WHy is it that sunday always pass so fast.... hmm.. its going to be monday again.. starting of a new week... have to endure five and a half day before its weekend again... boring.. haha.. thats always my thinking on sunday nite...
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__ Saturday, January 08, 2005 ;
I've changed my blogskin... wanted to show HIM this...
hmm.. but having arguements.. one led to another.. Is it never going to end? Can two stubborn people last their relationship? Or is it like what my mum always say.. for a couple, one of them must give in to the other....
From sleeping, argue till attitude problems, argue till staying over, then to photos... hmm.. maybe it may seem physical and insignificant to you, but i'm telling u, deep in my heart, it is significant to me... there is always this 'tug' in the photos becoz i've seen them... not as if i never... i'm feeling like what u've said short-changed...... how can i even be compared to her.. or, no matter how, u're going to tell me thats past and put it aside? I know i shouldnt ask and shouldnt probe.. but i cant help it.. its eating into me.. I know its unfair to compare abt photos.. but its becoz i seriously dont know how u treated her emotionally... and dont ask me to go and find her to ask.. becoz... i think its really very very stupid......
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__ Thursday, January 06, 2005 ;
AH.. i'm finally blogging again.. been wanting to blog but really no time.. Got to staple things and do the P&L... haiz.. i hate it man.. stupid P&L..
Sometimes, life itself is very ironic.. few weeks ago, i've been wanting to find a new job.. especially the one in DBS.. few days ago, starhub called me up.. said i've been recruited.. but i turned down the offer.. then DBS called me up too.. said i've been recruited too.. again, i turned down the offer becoz i have to serve 6months bond.. then, they called me back again.. 5 minutes later.. told me i dont have to serve the 6months bond.. however, i rejected them again... WHY?? coz... i have better plans in mind.. haha.. not going to reveal first.. when everything is settled down.. should be by end APRIL i will know if it works out... If not, will go find a job again.. :)
I've been sleeping at home the whole of yesterday... down with terrible flu and slight fever.. hmm.. but after one whole day of rest, i'm as good as new today.. haha.. although my voice sounds funny, but at least the tap is off..
Baby came to my house to visit me yesterday and bought lots of things for me.. biscuits etc.. he's worried that i wont have anything to eat in office.. hai.. silly guy..
Lets think back.. what have i achieved last year..
(1)no job hopping (2)cut contacts with clubbing friends (3)managed to save some money (4)keep and maintain good relationships with a group of close friends who are worthwhile of my attention (5)release myself from the clubbing lifestyle(i club only like once in 2-3 months?) (6)Spent more time with my family (7)I got myself a great bf.....
Things i'm going to achieve this year..
(1)Lose 2kg of weight (2)save more money (3)go on trip with baby and friends/family (4)get into XXX(by end of APRIL i'll know) (4)Be more decisive (5)Maintain my group of groups and make our relationships even stronger (7)More aim and direction in life
(8)Give more to my relationship and cherish my bf (8)Love myself more and stop giving myself stress
Errr,... thats all i can think of for the moment.. Well, i'll try to update my blog more often.. and Selena.. please do it too.. update urs more often..
Byeee Peepss... take good care and lets work towards a better year.. :)
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