__ Tuesday, February 22, 2005 ;
There's alot of things going on in my mind nowadays... Lots of what ifs.... Things which i've been very certain in the past now seems to be.... so uncertain to me...
What if, i choose path A but cant succeed? What if i cant even get to choose path A? What if, i stay where i am now? What if, i move on to something more challenging? What if..... One wrong move and BANG.. I'll be dead....
People think i think too much... But i cant help but worry.... Seldom get to communicate to stanrick abt these kind of things nowadays... he's very busy.. which led to him showing me attitudes once in a while... He used to give me strength and encouragement... Now, he has his own things to do... I'm so so... lost... Lets just hope i get the letter soon... So that even if its bad news, things will be fixed and i can get on with my planning soon......
Opps, i sounded pessimistic... But, i just dont want to be TOO disappointed if things doesnt turn out right... No point in having false hope eh...
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