__ Thursday, March 31, 2005 ;
THIS IS GOING TO BE THE FINAL OUTCOME???...........
My birthday is nearing. *hint* Yet, i dont feel excitment.. 22 years old.. Another one year older. But wonders if i'm wiser? Or more wishy washy....
In dilemma.
Anyway, i must learn to be independent again. Shrugs. Heaven played a joke on me. Happiness is short lived. I must accept it and look forward.
Auntie Jane was here. After sending me to K.C Lau's office, she came up to All-In. And, tata.... Alex was caught. In front of Clive's computer using MSN, doing his trading. I saw his 'oh-no. What-excuse-to-give-face.' Guess he's guilty, or scared.
Later, they went into Jane's office to 'talk'. Who knows abt what. Then Auntie Jane came out. Took JIC's namecard, paid and told me she'll talk to me tmr. Something's up. I can sense it. The way Auntie Jane talks. But what? I can only know it tmr. Coz she has entertainment tonight. Hmm.. I can only wait. But, that's the happiest thing that happened to be today... Alex being caught. And i'm not feeling sorry at all. I just hope Jane will see the point that Alex cant make it and get someone else in or manage All-In herself or just... forgo it.
This is the 4th day i never see him..... The longest we've never seen each other since the start of our relationship. Will i ever get to see him again? Will he change? Whats our problem? Is being truthful so difficult? Is it a habit to keep things to himself or is it a habit to lie?(being addicted and all) Why cant we go back to the life we've both so missed?
These questions keep popping up in my mind... Adding to my stress level and feeling lost. I've told him... Loving you is a difficult task.. It really is.. But i dont know why, i still love him.
Snow *
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