__ Wednesday, April 13, 2005 ;
Finally, its updating time. =)
Let me recall back, starting from Fri(08/04)~
Thought that Me & Him jialek until cannot jialek already.. Who knows, he went to meet his friends~ Sam & Pam, can msg me a msg telling me he's sorry, out of the blues.. without me expecting it.I was happy, but dont dare to expect too much coz i dont want to have disappointments again. Met up with Sel for dinner at Long John Silvers. Yum yum.. simply have cravings for it. Haha. My all time favourite food. Shop around lot 1, talk alot of craps, then left for home. Kinda cant sleep, he's not home, staying at his friend's place to rush his project. He msged me in the middle of the nite, telling me he still cant finish his project. I kind of expected we will not be able to meet up the next day..But still hoping for a chance to meet up.
Sat(09/04)~
Got woken up by his msg again @ abt 10am. Told me he's still not done yet. I got abit pissed, feel that he cant plan his time properly. Already planned to rot at home the whole morning and afternoon. But surprisingly, he msg me again at abt 11+am. Telling me he's going home already. Asked if i want to meet. We had a misunderstanding here, coz his next msg came in and say he has to work tonite. For me, i thought that he's telling me he got to work tonite, meaning he meant to go home to sleep, else he'll be tired. For him, he's just letting me know he's working tonite but still wants me to go over his place. I went to bathe, when i came out, i saw 4 missed calls and 3msgs from him. The msgs are all asking me whats wrong. Called him, and he attitude me, telling me just do wat i want. I gave him. I want to meet him, so i said its my mistake for misunderstanding. 5 minutes later, he called back to say sorry. Then again another 5 minutes later, called back and say.. I just want to say sorry. He's so funny. Went to his place and Nua for a while- he slept. Then both of us got ready, he went to work while i went to meet Sel and Stephie for dinner at Jurong Pt's Fish and Co. Shop around and i got myself a top as a birthday present for myself. hA! Went back to lot1, both stephie and i bought e33 to drink while sel bought the jack daniels. In the end, Sel didnt finish it coz she finds it too awful =X Sel was on the phone and i was talking to Stephie abt lots of things. Guess the bonds between the 3 of us are stronger now. Went home at abt 11pm.
Sun(10/04)~
Happy birthday to Hsiao Hui! Its a disappointing day. Stanrick told me the nite before to come to his place earlier. He's going to cook lunch for me and give me surprise. I reached at 11.30am. I walked to his place from Marsiling Mrt myself. Usually he'll fetch me from the train station. Was kinda sianz, but consoled myself thinking that maybe he's preparing my surprise. Got to his room, saw that he's sleeping and he still have the cheek to ask me to let him sleep for a while more. I got totally upset with him. Lied at one corner of the bed, thought abt things and just cried. I was so disappointed at him. Feels that he will just say but dont do.. He kept asking me whats wrong. But i dont want to tell him. Until he says this.. "Maybe we should reconsider things.." I looked at him and cried harder. Then he hugged me and asked me whats wrong again.. I told him how i feel. A moment of stillness.. Then he told me not to cry, coz "i dont feel too good seeing you cry" Asked me to try to understand. He's really tired, didnt sleep the previous nite. I was okay after a while. Went down and he cooked lunch for me. Slacked around after that and i took a cab to my Jiu Po's house while he went work. Jiu gong then drove us to Auntie Jane's place. Then 10 of us- Auntie Jane, Kelvin Uncle, YanYing, Yanzhi, their maid, Jiu Gong, Jiu Po, Jeslyn-Boon Siong's wife and son yixiang and me went to this restaurant~ Grand Shanghai which is somewhere near great world city for dinner. Its quite grand, with live singing~ Those chinese songs from the 70s. This dinner is actually to celebrate Auntie Jane's(11/04), Jeslyn's(11/04) and my(12/04)birthday. Thanks Auntie Jane. Had a very very full dinner. Then headed home.
Mon(11/04)~
Happy birthday Auntie Jane and Jeslyn! Was actually very sianz in the morning. Saw things that i dont want to see. Thought we will quarrel again. But maybe this incident has made me softer.. or wat. A change of attitude? I let him have a chance to explain. And he actually did. Usually he would just flare up and attitude me. But not this time. He even called me during lunch and explained to me the whole thing himself. So not him. But i guessed this method is working. Each one take a step back. This thing ended without any quarrels. But i still dont feel so good lah. Met him quite late, abt 7.45pm at lot1. He came with two big bags. Haha. He went to take 3 hamsters from Sam. The way he carried the bag actually looks quite cute. But i was determined to torture him, to push him to explain things further.. Which he did unexpectedly after 5 minutes of giving me attitude. He even told me what i can do with the password. Hmmm... Maybe, he really finally wants to end this issue and change le.. Hopefully? Haha. Nite time was spent blissfully. He looking at the hamsters innocently, kept commenting they look cute. Had dinner and he told me this.. "U know, every relationships will have ups and downs. Things cant stay ups forever. After a while, things will get mundane, then u will take each other for granted. But again, these periods will past.. then things will be fine again.." Indirectly, he's admitting he's taking me for granted? Hmm.. okok.. i admit. I do take him for granted sometimes. But, i've promised myself i'll change. =) Lets hope things are really like wat he'd said. I still wanted us to do things together. So i presuaded him to watch the 9pm show with me without fail on every monday and thursday(The only 2 days he dont have to work. hA!) Accompanied him for a smoke then he went home le.
Tues(12/04)~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!! On leave today. =) Was actually quite surprised some of my no/seldom contact friends still remembers my birthday. Thanks peeps! Supposed to meet stanrick at 10+am.. but due to some problem on his side, it was delayed till 1pm. As i was early, took train down to Marsiling to wait for him then took train together to Kranji to wait for Sam and Pam. Went to JB for one day shopping trip and for food. Following weili's instruction, walked over to city square. Had lunch there at abt 2pm. Thanks Sam and Pam for the lunch. Then shopped around. Bought a top from mango and a bag- all courtesy of Stanrick Tan. hA! After that, took cab to Permas Jaya's pet shop where Sam and Pam bought stuffs for their dog- a golden retriver. Coming to Sam's place on wed(13/04). Had dinner at the Da Ma hua yuan @ 5+pm~ Pigs rite? Haha. Actually i was quite full. But no choice, they dont want to leave so late. So went to have early dinner. We ordered quite alot of things and i managed to finally eat the crayfish.. Yummy!! Actually, kind of regret.. coz i ate quite little only.. hmm, should have forced myself. Since its a once in a while kind of thing. haha. Oh ya, before dinner was served, Stanrick and Sam 'disappeared' to nowhere. Saying they want to walk around a while. I thought they went for a smoke. Pam and I sat there and talked. She's a really nice gal. Told me some things abt herself and Sam. Then told me alot of Sam's friends think stanrick has changed alot and that he's really tolerant to me.. WTH?!! Tolerate? Sound as if i'm a very jialek woman. Taught me to use different methods from now coz stanrick, like sam is a strong headed guy. Hmm.. Upon hearing wat Pam said, kind of dawn on me that stanrick has really changed alot for me already. He has cut down alot of contacts with other girls. He just needs more time in other aspects~ Hopefully.. both of us will be more matured in our relationship. Then stanrick called and asked if we're alright.. Only then i realised he's been gone for quite long and all the food are already here. Then, within 5 minutes, he came back with sam following behind. Each of them carrying a buoquet of roses. I'm so surprise! He has told me he's a practical guy, dont want to waste money on roses. And.. This is the first buoquet that i've gotten from him. Not that i liked flowers. I think they are not practical too. But i do like surprises. =X And he looks kind of funny carrying the roses. Even Pam said so.. Haha!! Dinner was treated by stanrick baby. Aww... feels so heart pain that he spent so much money. Reached back at lot1 at abt 7.45pm and its raining heavily. Went bread talk and he bought a mini cake for me. Then its back to my place. Bathe and ate the cake after he sang the birthday song for me. Went to watch the 9pm show together again. Haha. Tues he also can watch.. Coz, he took leave tonite too =) Had an enjoyable day today. Even though in the beginning, i wasnt smiling as much as i was supposed to be, i still enjoyed today and it will always stay in my memories.
Wah... i had blogged for abt 1hr. Better get back to work.. Meeting the gals for dinner tonite... Wonders what shall we eat... i'm still so full.. :)
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