__ Monday, April 04, 2005 ;

Weili will not be here for 2 days. I'm so bored. Haiz.. have to eat lunch alone. Cant slack.. Means working hour will be longer. Monday blues..

Went to watch Ms Congenality2 with Selena on Sat. Boring show. I cant even sit still for that 2hrs. Haha. Partly because i had terrible stomach cramps. But luckily, the worst only came when i'm home and on my bed. Really the worst i've had. I had to pop panadols to make me sleep, to forget the pain.

As much as i hate to admit, i cant imagine life without him. There's no other i want to love. No other i can call my baby, my prince. Dont puke. Its all what i feel.. Last week was a terrible week. I had lots of time to think. Conclusion- Even though its always me suggesting a break off, i'm the one who will be more affected and sad if it really happens or when it happened.

The other time, Uncle Boon Siong said:" If he had other girls?"
"I'll just break off with him lor..."
Him: "No, u're cry urself to death and u'll be so sad..."
Me: "Shrugs"

But, i think what he said is true. I will, though i will tell myself i still have to live my life.

I think i'm paranoid butI cant change that. I used to laugh when someone told me he's paranoid when he's with me. I even detest him for being clingy... But guess now i'm the clingy one. I'm just so afraid of him doing something to spoil this relationship.. Haiz, anyway, relationships are a bother.

I know i'm not making much sense here. Just feeling bored. Plain bored.

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