__ Friday, September 16, 2005 ;
Its been so long since I've last blogged. I've decided to continue writing. I do like to write. It gives me a sense of direction of how my mind flows. Haha.
Anyway, the past few months has been great. Really great that I've a feeling something bad may happen to me soon. Hmm, true enough, last sat was a nightmare to me after so many months of peace. I didnt really sleep for sat night and sunday night. I just kept crying when i'm alone and i'm like a walking zombie. Luckily, Selena accompanied me during sat night. I did a very bad thing back to him. I called someone he doesnt like me to contact. And, i did it on purpose. I hit him too. Very hard i know. But i feel he deserves it. For being chee hong. Enough said. On sunday, i met up with lynn at jurong east entertainment centre. We sat in delifrance for few hours, chatted our hearts out. She was telling me problems i didnt know she faced and i told her mine. We exchanged ideas and she told me what should i do next. It really made me feel better, giving me the direction for the next few days. Otherwise i'll be totally lost. I couldnt concentrate on work on monday and i feel i may faint anything. My heart was so pain. I dont think i can stand this kind of nonsense anymore. Then he apologise to me. Keep saying he's sorry but he didnt do it, really.
Should i believe or should i not? Till now, i have no ideas.
We shall just wait and see how this thing developes. ANyway, a relationship is all abt give and take, forgiving and forgetting, isnt it?
Anyway, lynn will be staying at my house, starting from Oct, till she's more settled in her job (she told me today she has finally got an offer!), then she'll find an apartment and move out. I really got lots of things to learn from lynn, things abt humans and behaviours. And have an open heart- this is the most important!!!
I'll update more often as of today. :)
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