__ Thursday, May 25, 2006 ;

I did something good today and I'm happy. :)

JTC corporation, or shld i say ascendas pple came and informed me abt the layout plans to be submitted by the 30th may. Then i told them that we suspect there's bird nest at the roof, just outside our office. They promised to check it out and clear it away.

Less than half hour later, they came back and told us there's really bird nest and it has been cleared away and the hole blocked. It took me some mins to register, as i was really busy today.

Then i was like... "what? clear away? then is there baby bird inside?"

They looked at me as if i've grown a horn or became an alien.

"ya, there are baby birds.. our cleaner threw them away."

Hell.... I made them call the cleaner and ask where are the baby birds(they were saying at some grassland nearby). Judging from my colleagues and my reaction, they must be thinking we are mad, create such a scene because of some baby birds?

Haha.. in the end, they gave in and told us will bring the baby birds back.. I went outside with them, to take a look at the hole.. I saw a bird, flying near us and then away and then back again, as if searching for something. I've guessed it was the mother, searching for her babies. They guessed that as well.

I told auntie jane abt this and she still can laugh at me, saying i'm the one who caused the family to be apart. Damn.

Half hour later, they came in and told us the baby birds are back. Just that they are inside this paper bag, with the nest and all. Wei li and i was worried that the mother cannot see the babies inside. Haha.. in the end, we walked in and out to check, also to see that the baby birds are ok.. There are two.

The ascendas pple also very funny, because of these birds, keeping running here and there. Haha. Auntie Jane was saying very funny, they still will help us. I think inside their heart, they must be thinking "damn.. they think we got nothing better to do. We are looking after the tenants, not the birds.."

Wahahaha.

Finally, the mother saw them.. keep flying around it and calling out loud, as if calling for help. But at least by bringing them back, the mother can continue to fed them. If they are left in the grassland, they will confirm die of hunger, or get eaten by some animal.. SO, i've saved their life indirectly! Haha.

Hopefully they will be safe outside our office, in that paper bag.. And will grow faster (they are not that small after all. Got some feathers already, just cannot fly).. and then fly off ba. :)

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__ Wednesday, May 24, 2006 ;

Recently, i've read one of my close friend's ex bf's blog entry...
I'm disgusted and truely, shld i say.. angry.

Yeah.

Disgusted not because he like another girl. But because of the way he phrase and write the whole entry. The beginning saying abt this ex gf.. how much he owe her, and he's willing to give him his everything but his love. Thereafter, saying he met this girl and their story turned out to be like a dream, a fantasy as the girl disappeared.

There's seriously nothing wrong with him liking another girl as his story with my friend has ended.. However, it is wrong when he still on and off gives her kind of hope.

In my opinion, this ex bf.. Well, he's kind of being selfish. He feels he owes my friend alot.. However he does not want to get back with her. From my guess, mainly its because of her personal outlook that he couldnt seem to give her his love. True, which guy doesnt go for looks, or shld i say, which human dont go for looks. What i dislike here is the feeling of on and off... He begin so afraid that he might lose her care and concern, her companionship that on and off he got to come sound her out and talk to her when he gets lonely.. when things(or girls) doesnt get in his way.

What guys shldnt do here is to continue acting like a couple with the ex when they have already broke off. There's nothing wrong with you saying you wanted to be friends or good friends. But be true to yourself, aint u being selfish? Dont tell me you're not afraid that XXX will stop caring for you and if she's together with another guy, wont you feel funny or try to win her back? In that case, aint u being unfair to her? Have you think of how you will feel if SHE's the one who keeps saying she like this guy or that guy?

Think of what is it you want with her. You all can be friends. If you want to be good friends, get past those ai(4) mei(4) guan(1) xi(4) first. Dont drag others and dont let urself regret when the day comes when she's together with another guy. If you're not going to give her your love, dont expect her to always care for you. She got her own life. Maybe you both doesnt realise it now, but as an outsider, maybe both of you are just dragging time, trying to deceive yourself.

There's nothing for me get involve and this is going to be the last time i'm going to comment on the two of you.

One last thing, this is my blog and i'm free to write whatever i wish. Just like what you said in your blog, its your life.. you are free to do what you want to do. Correct, but its also your choice to post it out to the public and people do have their own freedom to want to comment on what you've said. If you dont want people to comment, dont post it out.

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__ Wednesday, May 17, 2006 ;

Its been so long and i'm back to blogging!

Life has been good, but pretty stagnant. Just read my horoscope, and it says this:

'May and June see of much decision making and changes. You might plan a trip or think of changing career. Do not be impulsive or reckless in making sudden decisions. Reflect on events over the last year and have clear intentions. Decisions will have a huge impact in the next several months. If on verge of a split up,healing will soon take place and set you on track by end of May. A friend or mentor will share your pain and sadness.'

All right, pretty accurate i guess.

(1)I am planning a trip- to KL, hopefully on 2nd June. That is provided that stanrick can confirm with me when he's starting work. He's at a crossroad now.. graduating and starting work. (its a change for him, maybe a change for me too- to be elaborated).

(2) I am thinking of changing career.

The next three sentences if what I keep thinking abt for the past weeks. Making me in bad moods. I seem to have lost interest in my job now. No drive at all and i get irritated with the customers and the jobs on hand easily. The promises that Alex is giving is beginning to take its impact on me.. All FALSE promises,(the last hope i have in him is on the 20th-if money will come in.)that keeps me waiting and waiting, hoping and hoping. Its just like the flame in me is getting smaller and smaller, till one day, it will really be gone.

But i have told myself that even if he finally fulfil his promise, i'm leaving for sure. Unless Auntie Jane put on a strong arguement, or if there is conflict between her and Peter. I'm thinking on how to handle this in a mature way, in a win win situation for everyone, including me. I dont want to be stuck here for long. Thats why i choose not to accept their offer to sponsor me for my studies(with 5.5yrs bond including studying time) and increase my pay. I only chose the pay increment part.

This decision that i make is going to have huge impact on me for next few months. Wonders if this statement is a pro or con for me. To be truthful, i stayed on in my current job mostly because of Auntie Jane. I feel i really owe her a lot, for introducing me this job and giving me all the welfares, including bonuses,company trips and 10% in shares- that is solely for me. Auntie Jane, if one day u glance upon my entry, pls understand that i do appreciate what you have done for me. Its because of my own future thats why i;m leaving. You have your own main business, thats why All-In is not really important to you. You just want to get back your investments and share the profits. For me, its my whole life career i have to think of.

Joining Peter's company is not the best alternative for me, but at least i feel is a stepping stone for my marketing career, since i'm going for a marketing degree. The pay will be much much lower, school fees sponsored, but at least there's no bonds for me. Peter may not be a 100% good boss-with his rubber band timing etc, but at least He's there for me to learn things from him.

Ok, enough of my work.

Abt stanrick, life with him is pretty good, i cant say very good, we still quarrel, he still gives attitudes. But the communication part is improving.... Ha, however.. he's going to the working society soon. I'm not sure how it will affect our life in future.. I've seen lots of couples breaking up last year and this year, mainly because of CHANGE. Be it army or working life.. there's bond to be changes, new pple, etc... Couples who are together for very long, even to the stage of planning marriage can also break off because the guy had change of heart when he started working, fall in love with colleague etc. Guess its another step we have to go through and see if we are able to move on smoothly.

The last part i hope there's a friend who will be there.. well, relationship with my friends are ok, at least for most.. However, i feel sad to say.. Maybe i;ve changed or one of my friend, Selena has changed. I value her friendship alot, but dont know what happened, we aint as close as the past.. Well, lets look and see.

Will blog again.

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