__ Wednesday, May 17, 2006 ;
Its been so long and i'm back to blogging!
Life has been good, but pretty stagnant. Just read my horoscope, and it says this:
'May and June see of much decision making and changes. You might plan a trip or think of changing career. Do not be impulsive or reckless in making sudden decisions. Reflect on events over the last year and have clear intentions. Decisions will have a huge impact in the next several months. If on verge of a split up,healing will soon take place and set you on track by end of May. A friend or mentor will share your pain and sadness.'
All right, pretty accurate i guess.
(1)I am planning a trip- to KL, hopefully on 2nd June. That is provided that stanrick can confirm with me when he's starting work. He's at a crossroad now.. graduating and starting work. (its a change for him, maybe a change for me too- to be elaborated).
(2) I am thinking of changing career.
The next three sentences if what I keep thinking abt for the past weeks. Making me in bad moods. I seem to have lost interest in my job now. No drive at all and i get irritated with the customers and the jobs on hand easily. The promises that Alex is giving is beginning to take its impact on me.. All FALSE promises,(the last hope i have in him is on the 20th-if money will come in.)that keeps me waiting and waiting, hoping and hoping. Its just like the flame in me is getting smaller and smaller, till one day, it will really be gone.
But i have told myself that even if he finally fulfil his promise, i'm leaving for sure. Unless Auntie Jane put on a strong arguement, or if there is conflict between her and Peter. I'm thinking on how to handle this in a mature way, in a win win situation for everyone, including me. I dont want to be stuck here for long. Thats why i choose not to accept their offer to sponsor me for my studies(with 5.5yrs bond including studying time) and increase my pay. I only chose the pay increment part.
This decision that i make is going to have huge impact on me for next few months. Wonders if this statement is a pro or con for me. To be truthful, i stayed on in my current job mostly because of Auntie Jane. I feel i really owe her a lot, for introducing me this job and giving me all the welfares, including bonuses,company trips and 10% in shares- that is solely for me. Auntie Jane, if one day u glance upon my entry, pls understand that i do appreciate what you have done for me. Its because of my own future thats why i;m leaving. You have your own main business, thats why All-In is not really important to you. You just want to get back your investments and share the profits. For me, its my whole life career i have to think of.
Joining Peter's company is not the best alternative for me, but at least i feel is a stepping stone for my marketing career, since i'm going for a marketing degree. The pay will be much much lower, school fees sponsored, but at least there's no bonds for me. Peter may not be a 100% good boss-with his rubber band timing etc, but at least He's there for me to learn things from him.
Ok, enough of my work.
Abt stanrick, life with him is pretty good, i cant say very good, we still quarrel, he still gives attitudes. But the communication part is improving.... Ha, however.. he's going to the working society soon. I'm not sure how it will affect our life in future.. I've seen lots of couples breaking up last year and this year, mainly because of CHANGE. Be it army or working life.. there's bond to be changes, new pple, etc... Couples who are together for very long, even to the stage of planning marriage can also break off because the guy had change of heart when he started working, fall in love with colleague etc. Guess its another step we have to go through and see if we are able to move on smoothly.
The last part i hope there's a friend who will be there.. well, relationship with my friends are ok, at least for most.. However, i feel sad to say.. Maybe i;ve changed or one of my friend, Selena has changed. I value her friendship alot, but dont know what happened, we aint as close as the past.. Well, lets look and see.
Will blog again.
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